Namarie

2006-04-01T23:45:00.000-08:00

The story is not really over yet, but it's time to begin again.

Tomorrow evening, after I get finished with other obligations, I will return to this and it will all be gone.

Not to worry much--it will go into my personal archives and I'll start anew.

I feel I've done a terrible job telling my story. The whole story of everything, infact. And I don't think I did it justice and frankly, I'm a better writer than this blog makes it seem. It's sporadic, and many of it wasn't well thought out...just reactions in anger, pain, and hurt (hence the "Judas Iscariot" posts) and while I posted those on my livejournal, I don't think they really had a place here.

I need to organize and tell it properly.

Tomorrow I'll start from the beginning. The very beginning, and using both posts from this journal, my livejournal, stories, memories, and even my sporadically used hand-written journal to reconstruct anything I might have forgotton. Because it's been such a long, long road and the memories are slipping through my fingers. Maybe it's better that way, but it should be told before it all goes away.

It'll be everything, and because of fear of realization and such, I left many vital parts out. It was needed then, but now it's not. I can speak without fear.

My identity will be wiped as well...any trace of my real name, my parents, and perhaps many other things will be erased. My city is a small city and it will be easy to figure me out, I suppose. And not all of this needs to be complete open public knowledge. Although if you know me well you'll know it's me.

Forgive the terrible writing and everything being so confused. I promise that I'll sit down and write it from the beginning, and anything modern happening I'll write and post later. It should all be more linear...if I even have anybody left to read this.

Peace be with you, and I hope to be telling my story to you soon.

--Ginny

The Beautiful Scar

Namarie